It's Hard.

To stick to my mantra of Own Your Actions when I can't seem to remember my actions.

I can't seem to remember my actions due to the first line in the mantra which is: Live in the Moment. Shit, my mantra is in a fight with itself.


What's a girl to do?!?

Quit drinking delicious bourbon? Quit drinking my emotions? (seems better than eating them...until you try and kiss with your married friend: Oreos, Ice Cream, hell, even straight bacon fat no longer sound so detrimental)

I give myself a week of abstaining 'til I get bored and immediately goldfish it and forget the lessons of this week...which my therapist is trying to convince me are not actually "failures." (read: line 3 of the mantra).

xoxo,

broken McCloud.